edgarallenfrog: various pics of harvey milk (werk)


This isn't the best picture in the world, is it? I obsessively try to carry a camera around with me everywhere, and take pictures to document everything, including 2 year birthday parties at Burger King with hyperactive children who don't like to sit still, and because of this I don't always take the BEST pictures in the world, so some of you may be wondering why I'm posting this picture here.

On Monday, I got a voice mail from my friend Michelle saying that her father had died suddenly and unexpectedly of a heart attack and she'd have to be going out of town. She was gone for several days, just coming back on Saturday. She got a hold of me and we talked for awhile on the phone that afternoon (I only got about 5 minutes of sleep due to this, but some things are more important than sleep). During this conversation she told me that since she's been estranged from her family for years she doesn't go to family functions, and she's pretty poor, so she doesn't own a camera, so she doesn't have any recent pictures of her dad (the last one she has is of him holding Aiden, her son, right after he was born 2 years ago) and she was really sad about that. We agreed to hang out and go shopping, so we got off the phone, and after I hung up I remembered that at Aiden's 2nd birthday party a month ago I took a picture of Michelle's dad. I didn't remember if the picture turned out well, but I decided to look it up and see. I viewed the picture online, and I admit, it's not the best. There's food all over the table, it's not centered, and my photography teacher would have nailed me for it, but it's got all three of them in the frame (Michelle, Aiden, and her dad Gary, and you can see how much they all look alike), they're all looking at the camera smiling, and I thought it might work, so I logged into my WalMart photo account and ordered some prints of it. When we went to the store I told Michelle about the prints, so we waited for them at the 1 hour photo counter, and the second she saw the prints she started bawling in the middle of the store. Aiden was in the cart, and he pointed at the pictures and said "Papa!" and then she and I BOTH started crying.

I think about this a lot, especially around the holidays. Ever since last year, I thought about how I don't have many pictures of my friends and I need some, because I want to document the memories I have before they slip away. I don't have any pictures of myself and some of my friends who have died, and that makes me sad. This is one of the reasons I never leave home without my camera now (or I try not to) because you never know. This is one of the reasons I was so sad when it broke...it's a tool I can use to capture those moments before they slip away. This is one moment I'm glad I got a chance to see.

She Speaks

Jul. 14th, 2007 01:16 am
edgarallenfrog: various pics of harvey milk (accepted)
In which I attempt to clarify my earlier post which I should have done, oh, say, BACK WHEN I POSTED IT and not NOW, hours later )

And these new pictures of me are dead sexy, so I'm going to post them. Because I'm an attention whore, remember? :-p

You Know You Want It / Come and Get It )
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My Apartment is Cooler than YOUR Apartment )

Also, don't foeget to try your luck at my movie quotes quiz: http://malakijr.livejournal.com/338717.html

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Jun. 15th, 2007 10:13 pm
edgarallenfrog: various pics of harvey milk (werk)
Migraines hurt. Like, really bad. And I want to vomit from all the medicine I tried to take to make it go away, which didn't work. I think it's from the sunburn. I walked an hour, worked 15 minutes (she wrote it in as a half hour though) and then walked back. Orientation sucks. Ashley paid some money toward the phone bill so I had some money to buy toilet paper. But at this rate...I need money. I'm going to have to pay bills at some point. I kind of want to cry. Plus these past few days I've been missing you know who a lot. Yep, definitely want to cry. I just want to travel back in time and convince myself not to let my walls down and not to let myself love him. That would have really hurt him a lot back then (I never told anyone this, but when we went on that first date, I had to go to the bathroom during the movie so I left and did that, and when I came back the people in their seats gave me the glare of death, so I waited in the back until the end of the movie, and when I went back to my seat to get him at the end, he was crying and he said "Oh good...I'm glad you didn't leave...I just thought we were getting along so well, and then you didn't come back, and it made me really sad"--that's how sensitive he was back then) but at this point, I'd rather hurt him than hurt me. Most of the time I'm grateful for what I learned when I was with him, I know it's a good thing I loved him and I know all this pain will be worth the wisdom I'll get from it. On my good days. On my bad days...yeah. Not so wise. Sigh. Bring on the wonder, I guess.



ETA

Ok, help distract me people. Name up to three aspects of my life you want me to photograph. They can be specific (my bedroom), or not so specific (something red).


go go go! i'm really excited for this one
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