edgarallenfrog: various pics of harvey milk (werk)
edgarallenfrog ([personal profile] edgarallenfrog) wrote2007-06-15 10:13 pm

ow

Migraines hurt. Like, really bad. And I want to vomit from all the medicine I tried to take to make it go away, which didn't work. I think it's from the sunburn. I walked an hour, worked 15 minutes (she wrote it in as a half hour though) and then walked back. Orientation sucks. Ashley paid some money toward the phone bill so I had some money to buy toilet paper. But at this rate...I need money. I'm going to have to pay bills at some point. I kind of want to cry. Plus these past few days I've been missing you know who a lot. Yep, definitely want to cry. I just want to travel back in time and convince myself not to let my walls down and not to let myself love him. That would have really hurt him a lot back then (I never told anyone this, but when we went on that first date, I had to go to the bathroom during the movie so I left and did that, and when I came back the people in their seats gave me the glare of death, so I waited in the back until the end of the movie, and when I went back to my seat to get him at the end, he was crying and he said "Oh good...I'm glad you didn't leave...I just thought we were getting along so well, and then you didn't come back, and it made me really sad"--that's how sensitive he was back then) but at this point, I'd rather hurt him than hurt me. Most of the time I'm grateful for what I learned when I was with him, I know it's a good thing I loved him and I know all this pain will be worth the wisdom I'll get from it. On my good days. On my bad days...yeah. Not so wise. Sigh. Bring on the wonder, I guess.



ETA

Ok, help distract me people. Name up to three aspects of my life you want me to photograph. They can be specific (my bedroom), or not so specific (something red).


go go go! i'm really excited for this one

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