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Apr. 21st, 2009 02:19 am
edgarallenfrog: various pics of harvey milk (werk)
I have itchy eyes. And not the cute kind, I mean full on I think I have hives in my eye. It's not pinkeye either, because I've had that before and my eye isn't pink at all, just crazy itchy. It comes and goes, but it's really bad today. Why must I develop allergies this late in life? SRSLY.

I got a free movie rental tonight, so I sat down to watch it, and when my phone rang I let it go to voicemail. Well when I saw it was my friend Michelle, I checked the voicemail, and she went off on me for not talking to her, so I called her back and she said she didn't go off on me, she was nice and calm (oh, we scream when we're nice and calm now? No one told me) but I told her she sounded really pissed and she started yelling about how she was having a hard day (my day has been a cakewalk, so I need you to dump on me) but I tried to smooth things out anyway, and I think we're ok now. I don't know. I do know I'm tired of being treated like shit by my friends.

Anyway, I was going to watch this movie to review tonight, but the power went out (and scared the shit out of me) as soon as I went to watch it. WAH. I hate not having power. It's dark and scary, plus we have gas heat, but when the electricity goes out, the heat shuts off anyway, and we can't get it back on. So of course it's colder than a seal's ass here tonight (it was 31 last I checked) and there's no heat, so I'm shivering and wanting about 1,000 blankets IN ADDITION to heat, but no heat for Lillian. Poo.

I got presents today! [livejournal.com profile] peskipiksi stopped by when I was in a coma and left a package outside my door. I got one book about Christians, one about why we should quit church, one about why we're a Fast Food Nation, and one that looks hilarious about how we need to combat the evil satanic new age theory or something like that. I also got a pretty picture frame, and I need to find a pretty picture to go with it. Yayness!

I'm discombobulated tonight. I suppose I could tell you guys why, but then you'd all say I was stupid and tell me I need to get over it and let go and let God and a bird in the hand is worth two in the bush and blah blah blah. Ok, no one in my journal is that bad (at least not anymore) but I'm afraid this is the response I'll get anyway, so since I don't have the strength to handle it tonight, I'll let it go.

I need a hope injection. I need someone to be nice to me for five minutes. I dunno. I'm not doing so well tonight. Sigh. At least the power came back on, so I can make myself some dinner finally if I can stay awake long enough. And I'll be warm now.
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I went to evening prayer at church Christmas Eve at 5:30, and sitting there in the pew staring at the stained glass windows, some dam in me broke and I cried for the whole service. A lady came and sat beside me and put her arm around me, and she sat beside me the whole service. Afterward I got to talk to the rector about things and I mentioned my friend Michael and how much I missed him and how hard it was for me to go to church and feel like a moog all the time and not know what to say or do and have to worry that people will be pissed at me or that I'll be cast out again. It felt good getting that off my chest. Then I got a call from Michelle, and she tried to kill herself so I went to the emergency room and watched her son Aiden for her while she was checked into the hospital and put on suicide watch. Because her attempt was only a few small cuts on her wrist she was allowed to leave as long as she stays with someone for the next 48 hours and doesn't spend time alone.

This is going to sound really terrible and I know that, but her "suicide attempt" was a lot more of a cry for help than anything else. I know she's hurting but I don't think she'd go through with it. This isn't to say that I don't feel for her or that I'm not going to be there for her, and I know she's not lying about being in pain or being depressed (shit, her dad just died a little over a month ago) but the very fact that she scratched up her wrists and then immediately called me for help says it all. She just wants someone to be there for her and know she's in pain (and her friend Bonnie, with whom she was going to spend Christmas eve and Christmas day, wasn't going to let her come over because Aiden has pink eye and they're all a bunch of wimps who think they'll get sick if he's around them even though he's had it for two days and he's been on antibiotics and the doctors say he's not contagious, and as soon as Michelle made her attempt, she got the ER doctor to call Bonnie and tell her that Aiden wasn't contagious and she should let Michelle stay with her) but the way she manipulates people gets tiring. Michelle is really manipulative. When we used to work at Arby's together, she would call me at work three times a day and she went through a phase of calling me up to ten times a day, and when I wouldn't call her back, she would start rumors about me at work so other people would come to me and start drama, and then I'd go to Michelle to talk about it, and she'd deny everything but not look me in the eye while she was doing it. Brett used to say that any time no one was paying attention to Michelle, she'd start a drama storm to get attention. Now that she has other friends in town besides me, that doesn't happen to me anymore, but it happens with her other friends now, so I know she hasn't changed. I'm not trying to bad mouth Michelle or anything, and I have plenty of my own faults, believe me, I'm just saying how it is...the thing is, it's not a bad thing to want or need attention. All humans need attention sometimes. It's the way she goes about getting it that needs work. I'm perfectly willing to accept people calling me and saying "I need attention" and I'll give it to them, but I know that saying that makes you vulnerable because it's admitting that you're not "strong enough on your own" and in our culture that's akin to death. Heaven forbid we should admit we're not completely self-sufficient and we need people sometimes. I know it was good that she cried for help, I just don't want her playing around with cutting herself, because that shit can become addictive, and her two year old doesn't need to see that. She said she stopped cutting as soon as he came into the room, but come on, if mommy is holding a knife and bleeding, kids aren't idiots, he's going to put two and two together, and he already has developmental problems and he hits himself in the face when he's frustrated, she doesn't need to be giving him ideas. Plus, when I was a teenager, I did the "say I'm suicidal in order to get help" thing that she's doing, and it really screwed with my life. I can't fault anyone else because I know I did it myself, but it's not something I'd recommend, and she has other options available. I just wish she'd see that.

I don't want to sound like a heartless bitch. I'm not saying Michelle is a bad mom, because she's not, and she's not a bad person, either. We all have our shit we do that isn't as well-adjusted as we always want to make ourselves look. I'm just venting a little. I'm hoping she's ok. Her neighbors that she's staying with start enough drama themselves, I hope it doesn't make things worse for her.

Midnight mass was fun too. It was cold walking there and back (after walking there and back for evening prayer already) but it was worth it.

I can't wait to open my presents tomorrow. :-p I don't know who the one is from, since it's from Amazon and I haven't opened it to see the note, but the other one is from Tina. Thanks Tina! I really appreciate it (more than you know). I'm not excited about working tomorrow night, but getting the money will be nice, and I'm excited about my dinner tomorrow. I'm roasting some turkey drumsticks, making curried potatoes, and making candied yam casserole with marshmallow on top. MMMMM.
edgarallenfrog: various pics of harvey milk (empty wallet)
So I said something about Black Friday at work and someone asked if I was being racist.

...

I work with really smart people.

Anyway, my Thanksgiving was good. As I mentioned in my last post I worked all night, I made my own meatloaf (it cooked in the slow cooker while I worked all night) and then I came home to stuff my face. Today after work I bought a half priced pumpkin pie from the bakery at Meijer and also bought a huge carton of cool whip, and I plan to eat it later while chilling all day. I totally needed something sweet and I didn't have any desert yesterday. It's my first day off in a week. I'm pumped because I just had my first "Black Friday" shopping experience ever (and yes, I am racist...it's not "African American" Friday in my house). It was crazy but not as bad as I expected. I feel a weird fierce loyalty to Kmart because I live in an apartment behind their store and so I walked there for their sale, and I waited in line. this was freezing cold, but actually not as bad as it sounds. I'm a freak, so I actually like waiting in line, because I like chatting with people. we were all bleary eyed and chatty and the staff of the store had made coffee for us, so that was a nice gesture. It was actually kind of fun, and seeing people pile into the store made me feel good because KMart is always on the brink of bankruptcy so it was nice to know they were making some sales (I told you, me and KMart, we're close). While I didn't get the doorbuster item I was mainly looking for ($10 MP3 Player, on sale from $40, and believe me, when they call it a "doorbuster" they fucking mean it, you have to bust the door down to be able to nab the damn thing) I did get 2 awesomely cool $5 barbie dolls for my "Angel Tree" kid from church. For those who don't know what my hip cool slang means, an "Angel Tree" kid is a poor kid whose parents fill out a slip of paper asking for gifts so they can give the kid a Christmas...I'm all about that...once the paper is filled out, the parents tie the paper to a tree somewhere, maybe the Walmart or Kmart entryway (not the Meijer entryway, because we are heartless and don't care to help poor children) but anyway, my church hosts an Angel Tree too, so I grabbed a name right away, and this girl and I are in sync. She loves Barbies and Hannah Montana, and she loves the color pink...yes, I realize I just admitted to liking Hannah Montana. Yes I am secretly twelve years old. Yes, I am comfortable with this. I also happened to notice in my shopping the "When a Stranger Calls" remake on sale for $3.99, so I nabbed that too. I know a lot of people hate that movie, but I liked it, so I'm pretty happy that I got it for cheap and I can watch it any time I want. Plus I managed to order my MP3 player online, so I got that, too. Yes, I NEED another MP3 player. Yes this was a good use of my money. It IS TOO, shut up, what are you, my MOM? Ok, while I may not NEED it, this MP3 player is better than mine; this one is rechargeable and it holds 2 gig of data, so it was a good deal and I'm pumped (plus it's all cute and pink...yes, I have issues, we know this). All in all a good start to what I hope is a good day. This is my Thanksgiving.

PYX )

CHRISTMAS

Nov. 16th, 2008 07:15 pm
edgarallenfrog: various pics of harvey milk (werk)
STEP ONE
- Make a post to your LJ locked or otherwise. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for Such and such on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas/Yule/Kwanzaa/Channukah is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

- If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you. [Note: Your home address is not required!]

- Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ so that the holiday joy will spread.

STEP TWO
-Surf around your friends list (or friend's friend's, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream pure bred Basset Hound for free--do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call. There are no guarantees with this project, and no strings attached. Just... wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive.

email: edwardnortonfan at gmail dot com.

I'll post my address, what the hell. If someone wants to kill me in my sleep, at least I won't have to go to work.

Lillian Patterson
1127 Fuller Ave. Apt. #12
Big Rapids, MI 49307

And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

TEH LIST

1. A subscription to Fangoria.

2. A DVD of "Twas the Night before Christmas" with the little mice and the clock (does everyone know what I'm talking about?) Also "Garfield Holiday Celebrations" DVD. This is all his holiday specials on DVD, the Christmas, Halloween, and Thanksgiving ones. I was watching these auction on eBay but then I decided it would be smarter to buy food instead. :-p

3. A pain killer that isn't Ibuprofen. Percocet, Vicodin, prescription strength naproxin sodium, etc. Yes, I know this is illegal for you to send me, I'm just saying I wish for it.

4. The board game "Apples to Apples."

5. Young Adult novels. New, Old, used, rare, weird, gay, straight, it's all good. These are like crack to me.

6. "A Miracle on 34th Street" and "White Christmas" on DVD (I am such a sap).

7. SOCKS. Mine are all falling apart. D:

8. Christmas cards! I love getting these. I love getting mail from real people, seriously. It warms my heart. They sell musical cards at the dollar store now (my dollar store can beat up your dollar store) so I might be able to reciprocate with a musical card, but either way, I'll send you one back if you send me one.

9. More picture frames to feed my obsession of covering every inch of my walls with pictures.

10. Gift certificates to Meijer, Walmart, Amazon.com, and Dollar Tree.


I love granting holiday wishes. There's an Angel Tree in my church (a tree with wishes from local kids hung on it where people can pluck wishes off and grant them) and one little girl asked for Barbies, and that was a big wish of mine back when I was a kid and we were too poor to buy Barbies, so I took her wish, and then Meijer had Barbies on sale for $3 this week (good Barbies too, not the skeezy looking ones) so I was able to grant her wish. I was really happy I will try to grant wishes from the other people on my friends list as well.
edgarallenfrog: various pics of harvey milk (hot guy)
I went to the bank and wrangled with them to give me a copy of my statement (they claimed they couldn't for security reasons...huh wha? But I got it, I went to Staples to fax it (hey, what do you know, it SAYS I PAID MY CABLE BILL IMAGINE THAT. I haven't heard back from Charter but I'm going to be FURIOUS if this doesn't work out. Then I was stressed and pissed, so I wandered over to the Kmart plaza and bought some Lipton Cold Brew (OMG ICE TEA) and then got a brilliant idea to make spaghetti for dinner, since I was near Goodwill and I could see if they had a big pot I could buy for less than $237823782347823478 which is the approximate price Walmart charges. Hello Goodwill, Hello $1 pots, Hello book aisle that caught my attention, Hello NICKEL AND DIMED FOR FIFTY CENTS, hello another Christmas present for Dani brand new for only $1 (I shan't tell you what it is, but I hope you love it as much as I do). I spent money on books that I probably shouldn't have bought, but since I didn't buy the Baby Sitters Club books they had (all two of them, numbers 2 and 11, which I've read 23893892348934289 times each) and the books were cheap, I consider it worth it. I got a Christopher Rice book and "She's Come Undone" by Wally Lamb which I've been wanting to read forever, and of course the aforementioned "Nickel and Dimed" which I've also been meaning to read, and the present. Plus I got my pot, which smelled frightening so I gave it a bleach bath when I got it home, but which I'm excited about since now I can make things that require more than one pan. :-p I searched the stores for Superman Action figures [livejournal.com profile] terminal83 but they don't even have the Justice League ones right now. About a million Batman figures for some reason, and some Batgirl ones too (?????) and of course a million Spiderman ones, but no Superman. My town sucks. I'll just buy you a My Little Pony, ok? There were plenty of those. I'll paint a red "S" on it and tie a cape around its neck. All y'all need to post lists so I know what to get you! [livejournal.com profile] windandsummer I have some things on your wish list for you. If you want to email me your address, I promise I'm not a murderer, just ask [livejournal.com profile] dr_christine, I sent her stuffs too. My email is edwardnortonfan@gmail.com

This is a pointless entry really. I was tempted to buy some mango shampoo and conditioner at the Dollar Store since it smelled heavenly, but I couldn't afford it (well, I had some money, but after the pot and book spree I didn't want to spend any more). I'm rambling now. I'll stop.

Wish List

Nov. 4th, 2007 08:15 pm
edgarallenfrog: various pics of harvey milk (accepted)
Christmas Wish List

Step One
- Make a post (public, friends locked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

- If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

- Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread.

Step Two
- Surf around your friends list (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

My Wish List )

We should all do this, I'll get stuff for people. It'll be cool.

I just got a call from the cable company saying I didn't pay my bill for October when I did. I'm freaking out. Fuckers. I paid online with a debit card, and my bank says they can't give me a statement saying I made the payment, which I don't know why but it's fifth third so we don't ask why. Good LORD this year has sucked. Here's to next year.

Can anyone recommend a book with good graphic sex scenes that's actually a good book? I want to get it for my friend Allison but I can't think of one. Well, I'm going to get her Clive Barker's "Sacrament" but I don't know if she'll like it.

I just switched my gas provider to Universal gas. The guy came knocking on my door (pretty hot too) and I looked over the paperwork, I'll be saving money. I'm excited.

ZOMG BODY

Aug. 16th, 2007 05:22 pm
edgarallenfrog: various pics of harvey milk (suicide)
Listen here, body, you JUST had a migraine YESTERDAY, you are NOT allowed to have one today, especially when I haven't eaten any of the foods I ate yesterday in anticipation of you having some kind of food allergy. Stop this behavior right now, it's childish and I don't like walking to the kitchen not able to see because you make my vision all blurry. I need that.

I can has presents? )

Rice milk is really good, I love the taste and I HATE the taste of soy milk, so this makes my transition away from dairy a lot easier. I'm sad though, because I LOVE my dairy, especially my cheese, but I don't like how it makes my throat burn and swell when I eat it. I don't know how I'll be able to give up cheese, though. Sigh. But Rice Milk is good. I have decided this, and it is true because I said so. And I'm glad, because I was frantic because like I said, I hate soymilk and I tried some lactose free milk and it was the most vile, disgusting garbage I've ever tasted. Seriously, people DRINK that shit? WILLINGLY? Ew.

DAMMIT head. What did I JUST say?

*cries*

HELP!

Feb. 15th, 2007 04:27 pm
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[livejournal.com profile] peskipiksi and [livejournal.com profile] thecherrywench, can you reccomend me some books about witchcraft and the like that aren't full of shit? They all sound like they're full of shit to me. I'm notoriously hard on books, and I judge them by their covers and decide that they sound ridiculous without even reading them; I've done this my whole life (it's a miracle that I've ever read any nonfiction at all with this attitude). But I'm sure some of them would be helpful or at least informative...Scott Cunningham wrote Wicca: A Guide for the Solitary Practitioner, and I kind of want to buy it but at the same time I worry that it will be a waste of my time. Blargh.

I bought some presents for certain people on my LJ list and sent them out (something I plan to do more often now that Deep Discount DVD has books on their website and I can send gifts with free shipping...you should all check it out).

Plus John and I went to Grand rapids today so he could take me to Mongolian Barbeque for Valentine's day, and we went to the mall, so I ran into Barnes & Noble (literally, I had to use the bathroom bad but I had to buy books first...you understand, right?) and bought A Ring of Endless Light and The Misfits and then hoofed it over to FYE planning not to buy anything else...and I was really good, too, passing up several movies I wanted to buy...but then I saw a copy of Raising Arizona...yeah. So I have some reading and watching to do. It was a good day. Now he's at work and I'm bursting with energy from the Rip It I just drank (even though I only slept for 3 hours) so I'm bored and I want to find more exciting books to read.
edgarallenfrog: various pics of harvey milk (hot guy)
Quote of the week:

(On Christians going crazy capitalizing sentences that involve God)

Fundies usually insist that because he's so fucking amazing, their LORD (sometimes written out in all caps, too) is always capitalized, even when just the antecedent of "You," "He," etc.

"And He said...." Blah, blah, blah. But the He is God or Jeebus, so He's so damned special he breaks the laws of grammar.


LMAO @ "He's so damned special he breaks the laws of grammar."

Richard...Riiiiiiiiiccchhhhhard...I'll send your bombs WMDs extra special gifts next Monday when I become rich again (HAHAHA, and this is assuming my paycheck doesn't fucking BOUNCE again...yeesh...)
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